Crazy how much i love you

I hate you for choosing him. I hate you for wanting him so badly. But mostly, I hate myself for not being him! I can't hide it anymore. I've tried so fucking hard that I swear I'm going crazy sometimes. It's eating at me. I can't sleep, can't think; I can't even function because I'm thinking about you so much. But I get it, I do, it's him you want and from now on I'm hands off. But I have to let you know how I feel before I go nuts.

And when they're old enough I'm going to tell my little girls that everybody looks a little crazy if you're looking close enough, and if, you can't look that close then you don't really love them. All the while life goes around. And if you keep waiting for somebody perfect you'll never find love, because it's how much you love them is what makes them perfect. For Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, he came to me and said, "I want to do everything that's in the book, and as much more as you need, so that it all makes sense.

I love my job so much. I thought, what a cool way for kids to learn, via assignment, via reporting. I learn so much as an adult going around and covering these stories. How fun it would be to do it via a storybook app and cartoon characters. My daughter can work on an iPhone and iPad like crazy. That's their world. If you can use that, use it educationally. Don't you know?

Don't you know how crazy I am about you? I guess I did know, but I never imagined he might say it. He cradles my neck in his hand, thumb stroking my nape. We've made a beautiful mess of things lately, haven't we? There's been a lot of romance, sometimes way too much drama I don't want to live without you, not for one more minute, not for one more second. I want to spend the rest of my days living my story with you I didn't know how much I could love until you were gone. Until your laughter no longer filled my home, your wicked high jinks no longer made me crazy.

Until I stood in that damned club and knew, without you by side, my life was as empty as my bed was without you in it. I didn't know what love was, until I saw my refusal to admit it drown all the sweet innocence in your eyes. I love you. The love is so powerful that both people have to surrender. I think that's the funny thing about dating somebody for the first time, it's kind of a question of who wears the pants, or who's gonna text you first, how much am I supposed to put myself out there, and it makes you feel a little bit crazy.

But at the end of the day, it's not about that. And if it's the right person you don't have to worry about that. Sometimes I feel crazy being this dramatic about a love that only lasted a few months and You don't measure love like that.

You measure it by its effects. It doesn't matter how long it lasted. It's how much it grows you that matters. I wished for death," he whispered, and the words took the smile from both our lips.

His gaze met mine again, this time it was earnest and beseeching. I could not. I sat here with the pistol at your head for a long time. I thought of So I am chained here in this life, with you. Love is by definition an unmerited gift; being loved without meriting it is the very proof of real love.

If a woman tells me: I love you because you're intelligent, because you're decent, because you buy me gifts, because you don't chase women, because you do the dishes, then I'm disappointed; such love seems a rather self-interested business. How much finer it is to hear: I'm crazy about you even though you're neither intelligent nor decent, even though you're a liar, an egotist, a bastard. It didn't make much sense to me then, what Gnut was going through, but after Pila and me had our little twins, and we put a family together, I got an understanding of how terrible love can be.

You wish you hated those people, your wife and children, because you know the things the world will do to them, because you have done some of those things yourself. It's crazy-making, yet you cling to them with everything and close your eyes against the rest of it. But still you wake up late at night and lie there listening for the creak and splash of oars, the clank of steel, the sounds of men rowing toward your home.

It was great seeing Annie again. I realised what a terrific person she was and how fun it was just knowing her. And I thought of that old joke, you know. The guy goes to a psychiatrist and says, "Doc, my brother's crazy. He thinks he's a chicken. You know, they're totally irrational and crazy and absurd and, but, err, I guess we keep going through it because most of us need the eggs.

Sometimes you find that one person, and you just know. And even if you don't love them right away, you know you will. It's just a matter of time. Because no one you've ever known has come close to making you feel the way they do.

It keeps you up at night and drives you fucking crazy, but you pray to God the feeling never goes away no matter how much it's killing you. Like he hadn't realized what he'd said until then. Apparently he was wrong. Ash shrugged. Ash let out a weary sigh, his gaze falling to his hands. I really thought he'd give me some time, but he's going out for drinks with Seb this Friday. I'm fucking stupid in love with you. I know you're scared, but I'll work with that, I'll build everything around what you want.

I want you to choose me. Choose us. Take a fucking chance on the unknown for once in your life and trust I'm there with you, that I will never hurt you in any way you expect from people and I'll always do my best for us. You are not alone. I'd never leave you alone. I'm fucking crazy in love with you, so fucking crazy it drives me mad wanting you to choose me back, I'd chase you to the goddamn end of the world, that's how much I want you. I remember a very tender moment from that year, when Steve and I were lying on the floor watching Ellen do a series of crazy, arm-flinging, and knee-slapping dances and tumbles.

I looked at Steve and said, "Isn't it funny how I just love her that much more for being so vulnerable and uninhibited and goofy. I could never do that. Can you imagine knowing that you're loved like that? You are my one and only. I love you. I am so happy I get to do this life with you. I love you endlessly! I cannot wait for what the future holds for us. I love you I love you more than life itself.

Thank you for being my person. Thank you for making me feel magical. Thank you for always being by my side every step of the way. Love you always. Thank you for your unconditional love and unwavering support throughout the years. My heart is yours forever. My life changed the moment I met you. Simple, yet meaningful:. For when they're your favorite person:. Reaching limits you didn't know existed:.

Life before love wasn't really life:. When you catch those heart-fluttering glances:. For when they're the calm after the storm:. It's a pretty picture:. When you love all of them:. The perfect person:. They're the only one for you:. When you want to spend forever with them:. Every day feels like the first date:.

Personality over everything else:. For when they make you feel drunk in love:. And I'm standing here, a moonstruck teenager pining for an enemy soldier.

What am I, crazy? This time, I'm the first to turn away. You're crazy, you know. That's what falling in love is all about - being vulnerable. Leaning on someone else. You don't lose yourself in the process - you grow. I love you. You crazy bastard. They've loved you your whole life and you've been gone for days. I've just loved you for the better part of a week and losing you just 'bout drove me crazy. Love is all that counts in this crazy, mixed-up world And I know -I just know- you can remind me what it feels like to have someone look at me and love me with wanting me to be something else.

I was completely crazy and mad when I was young. I was absolutely in love with the dissolute. I don't need a boyfriend to be happy. If I meet someone and I want to be with him, then I will be. I'm very confident in being single until I find someone who I'm extremely crazy about and who I want to devote my time and love to. It's crazy, right? To love someone who's hurt you?

It's even crazier to think that someone who hurts you loves you.